About Me

i rather let it be interesting

My Favorites

Favorite Band or Musician: alesana, kill hannah, a beautiful silence, the juliana thoery, a thorn for every heart, chiodos, typecast, slipknot, slayer,taking back sunday, cute is what we aim for, boys like girls, mika, hellogoodbye, the autumn,the enemy,paramore, marylin manson, kill mannequin, blood for blood, weezer, gwar, darkane, the misfits, my chemical romance, metallica, hathrax, corporation187, imogen heap. ect
Favorite TV show: bmx, heroes, house
Favorite movie: saw, the texas massacre, dejavu, a man apart, princess diaries part one and two, ect
Favorite book: speak, the girl walking backwards,getting the girl, lucas, mosh pit, traffic, the adventures of fanboy and goth girl, ect
Favorite sports team: none
Favorite food: salad, peppers

My Hobbies

whenever im free i play football with my brother..i play the guitar and piano im trying to elarn how to play the drums its hard though i also write poetry and im currently writing a book of my own, i draw very well and im a songwriter the rest u got to find out

its all about music

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Its called Anger Focus

Im Angry/

It may not sound like im angry/

But I am/

Angry because im angry/

Im angry and when im angry/

I yell, yelling at the angry in Im/

Im angry, angry with the voice/

Voicing my angry Im angry/

Just the anger in the pen/

The pen is angry at me/

Im angry , angry at the sobs/

Sobbing for the wrong/

You don’t know me/

The me in the I know/

I am angry, angry, angry at my shadow/

Shadowing my angry with me, me can’t be angry/

And when im angry with speak, speaking with the speak makes the speaker angry with me/

My actions , actions getting the best of me, the fragile testily, the ultimate destiny /

Getting the best of me give me the free/

So angry at the mean, mean meaning sad sadness what?/

Im angry at history , but if you fracture history angry will see that he is the part of the story but his story ain’t got nothing to do with her story , so both stories are numb for the silent what?/

At the spray, spraying, sprayed anger’s reflection the strange imperfection, getting perfect with its situation yeah it’s the confusion, hmmm fusion is real good, getting the real me, ME/

I quite don’t understand, the meaning of understand is under my stand don’t even stand me ,so it shouldn’t be a understanding/

IM angry, angry so angry at sorry, souring for the gnashing of teeth in me can be angry/

The music, musical is hurting the time, timing my moments, non moments come quick, quickening my emotion, emotional can be quick if you stop, stopping at my focal point, pointing at me/

At me can tell you to tell the writer, writing my dreams, dreamers, dreaming, dreamed? That im angry/

And im angry at him, him is angry with the at the at can be angry with angry/

Im angry at the mirror the mirror is speaking, speak mirror tell me your reflection let me hear you, hearing your voice makes me panic-stricken the cool, cooling words of the wind that shape, shaping itself on ground, grounding is hard, hardening the hands to work, working for the silent in the hands/

Im the angry wind, winding the angry, angry im angry, angry because anger is the child that’s inside of me, the child in the wind, and im that child , chilling in the chill, chill word, worded child/

And when im angry I start to drink to much, drink to much leads to swears, swearing at the shadow I call mother…….but im motherless so who am I swearing at? Coarse language at my angry/

The smoke smoking my breath, breathing my fears in/ inside of my inner scenery………..angry has no identity, identify me in the angry voice can you find me? Im angry because my bullets don’t have names but my gun wants me to identify them ….they have no name but they fly, flying in the lifeless scenery ….Im angry, angry at the anger sign on my head, heading in the wrong move, moving it to anger’s place, placing the born in loud music there/this reader don’t understand that its called anger focus/

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Conversation part II

I looked in the mirror today and I waited….

“hello how was your day”

“hmm it could’ve been better”

“how so?”

“well.. Today I got pick on from one of my teachers…my friends ignored me…I don’t know it’s the same old things”

“you know you cant let things like that get you”

“…yeah I know it like happens all the time”

“so who you catch your eye on today?”

“ …do I really have to answer that?…well I was staring at this kid in my class ..he is so dumb sometimes but I wonder if I even like him”

“well that’s interesting”

“yeah I know. ..He then turn to me and smiled ..and my heart didn’t even stop”

“that’s interesting”

“yeah I know”

I pick a chair and sat in front of the mirror…

“well lets start our assignment for today”

“aaaahh do we have to. I mean can we just like forget it. There really is nothing wrong with me”

“I don’t care how you feel we are doing it anyway”

“fine…ok lets begin”

“good I like your attitude”

“..uh thanks”

“well lets begin..hmmm remember when you locked yourself in your room for days?”

“ yeah that was the worse day ever….I don’t quite remember it clearly”

“well I do…lets see…you cried because someone reveal the truth in your face. You were called many names like:

Slow…

Boring…

Emo…

Nobody..

Cutter…

Lonely…

Outcast…..yeah I remember you slammed the door and I almost fell off the door…you cried so hard im sure your eyes were as red as blood…”

“ok enough I get it. I was wining like crazy ..let it go…”

“im not finish … you acted like a major fool…you know I tell you everyday to not let that get to you. And what did you do? You let it get to you… “

“I KNOW DON’T REMIND ME…. Im sorry that was mean but still I know how I was but look at me now”

“I am looking at you now… your still fighting but there’s a part of you that wants to stop fighting am I right”

“I hate it when you do that ..yeah your right”

Then I looked in the mirror and I was suddenly shocked from this question..

“would you ever break me?”

“uh..um”

“ok lesson is finish you may run along now”

The mirror turn blank and I wonder what happened….

To be continued….

 

 

 

 

 

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